Colin Jaw
Cockroaches in my head.
Instead of corroding cockroach heads, looking for some new ones. In other matters of etch - easier to cut off his head. But they're all so incredibly cute! I already pre sad that half (by genre law) have to be removed. I'd like to remove, but with the resurrection, I do not want to communicate (this is somewhat devalues &'&'death in the story. But in Naruto revived many times all that I did not react to the death of characters), as well as to change the years galloping. Pechalka in general. I am trying to decide which of the cockroaches away, but someone kept alive. In parallel they draw.
Daaam
Today, just the hardest stage of my depression Day: never felt almost in the abyss, already standing with one foot on krayu.Mozhet, having nothing to do, but I, for some reason, do not think so.Today, just the apogee of my inner pain: do not help any community of others like me, does not make it easier to read the literature of different nature, including the one that explains the mechanisms of injury and exposure scenarios to the generic world of man and his life. Singing, too, does not work, it needs energy, force. I just barely get up (at will lift itself) and go ... And where I am going? I do not know. Just to go outside, to feel part of something. I also had nowhere to go. I was nowhere and no one is waiting.
Thinking out loud
All adults around were somehow convinced that "someone you love more, someone less," and things like that. Then to me it somehow never occurred, but now, perhaps, we can say that the antagonism is only a "love - dislike" concepts, and everything else - it's just a desire to nourish selfish needs. I am extremely sorry that I give in to these provocations, seriously thinking that someone can love more, or vice versa.
I am pleased.
Yesterday I made a few important things.First, finally I went and hair cut. Somehow I missed the moment when so prices rose. Well, yes, and it is clear to the hairdresser once a year go. Again it was regrown hair to her waist obsecheny mercilessly on shoulder. But now not-burned cleansers, but something healthy, shiny, and even has a certain shape. Satisfied.
People wear masks.
In me they see an intelligent man, capable, perhaps, move mountains. But this is not the case. They see only my skin. Yes, corny, I know. But it is so. They see what is actually there. The mind - it's just a good memory, tact - reluctance to get involved in conflicts, peace - a mask that I did not take over the estates. In general, selfishness - it's my everything. Even the desire to help others, caused by the desire to feel, first of all necessary to someone. As my teacher: "People tend to wear masks that have the people to communicate with them." It's true.
I like Jazz
For performance, we thoroughly Maceo Parker moved to the scene, but the number of tall people is not affected. AA comforted me by reports that the growth of the average Dutchman is 181 cm. Average golladtsy were everywhere, but I already know what to do. Fantastic concert. Parker 73 years old, if you do not lie to these your internet, because it is difficult to believe. His singer broke me into a thousand tiny cubs. But there were still thick guitarists and a drummer, and tutved all know who I'm going to get married when I retire. I am delighted.Legs, back and neck fall off.
I'm going to the gym
I of course, and the house has a dumbbell and a horizontal bar, and a rug to swing the press, I, too, when it bought, but the one in the room to swing to the music already as tired) But seriously, the additional burden to me essential. It just so happened that I have a slight displacement of the vertebrae, and when the body after the working days is exhausted and squeezed like a lemon, the back pain does not leave me, and this pain before, is not pleasant, that sometimes caused nausea desire.Now the good of it all behind and extra strength I draw from not energy drinks, and resort to more reasonable and correct method) According to a healthy body, healthy mind)
You can't runaway from urself
The more people who advise you to "throw out all the excess out of my mind," the more often you catch yourself thinking that it is foolish to try to escape from yourself ...After all, at the end of the day, when everything settles, and you are finally left alone, you're caught off guard the thoughts of which you are so hard hiding all day.
An old Indian proverb.
There's an old Indian saying: "The horse died - get off." It would seem that everything is clear, but ...1. We persuade ourselves that there is still hope2. We strongly we beat a dead horse3. We say: "we always rode"4. We will organize an event to revive the dead horse5. We tell ourselves that our dead horse is much better, faster and cheaper6. We are sitting near the horse and try to persuade her not to be dead7. We buy tools that help faster ride dead horses8. We change the criteria for the identification of dead horses9. We pull off dead horses together in the hope that together they will ride faster10. We hire experts on a dead horse.But the bottom line is simple: HORSE died - tears!
I'm trying to understand.
It so happens that the relationship to the person changes. I always try in such cases, to speak, to call on a serious conversation, to understand (usually strengthens the sweet illusion, for some reason, nobody does not explicitly recognized that habitual you reality there, and you really are in the belly of the predatory fungus that you digest, like in the series "The X-Files," on which he wrote a few years ago and which still can not forget). But when even in response to these attempts to come across only in the armor with spikes, from which drips poison ... I do not know, even for me it is a sign that nothing can be done. If I can not get through the thorns, even for the sake of conversation, apparently, can only dissolve in the mist.
Summer is over.
But in general...That ended the summer 2016.Thanks to him. Because suddenly, but that it was very special, very important, very strong to change something in me and in my relationship to the world, and, most importantly, to himself. It's amazing.And on bikes so we never with anyone, and do not ride. ((((
I simply don't understand
And once again I come to the conclusion that it is easier I can not be. Here, again, that's wrong with them? Why can not I just go and do? All material is much faster and easier. You want - you flag in hand. What hinders? But when you do not know what you want - it is terrible.
I am an owl.
Personally, I am a pronounced owl peak of activity and energy in me in the afternoon, in the evening and night, but - due to the already mentioned sharpening world under the larks - the only option for full functioning at work and in society is the adjustment to the regime under the ups and early solution of problems in the morning than I do, in fact, in the last days and do. I went the second week, normal flight. The desire to sleep late, of course, there is, as well as the reluctance to go to bed "when necessary" rather than "when I want to", but nothing break through.
Optimism only!
Optimism gives strength - to overcome the difficulties of life.Optimism gives hope - for the best in every situation.Optimism gives freedom - from sadness, envy, and indifference.Optimism gives the opportunity - in the extraction of any situation invaluable life experience.Optimism gives joy - sincere joy of life
We will grow in our fun)
Good afternoon guys! Thank you very much for the opportunity to Flirt4Free be here with you! I am very pleased that plucked up courage and began to stream my show here! Thanks to everyone who supports me here to see prices, thank the administration and my favorite people! I'll get free and improve my show every day, as is obliged to justify this support)
My fears.
In the bustle of everyday life, I somehow manage to escape from the evil thoughts, music and drown out the incessant activity, but in the evening ... In the evening my dreams, fears come to life, gaining strength, and the world, they begin to play with new colors, to reduce crazy hazy boundary, which, like the glass, protects me from them, but hides. How loud to shout that the universe listened to you? - I do not know, but clearly feel that I need to realize their dreams so much that does not cease to pray for them. And feel a squirrel in a wheel.
So. what do you think about that?
Anyone who has taken one way or another judge of the imperfection of the world, must be confident in his own integrity. At least in the framework of the topic.However, this usually just confident.And more often unfounded.On the other hand, anyone who comes to say this everyone accusingly, "and he somehow you what ?!", to be sure only in imperfection mentioned any.It is much easier - and justified.Does this mean that the reproaches more rights and more have the right to blame than judgmental - to condemn?
What is ur sign?
Do you believe in the compatibility of characters, signs of the zodiac compatibility?What to do: believe it or not - if you fall in love with a man who, by no means, all the canons goroskopnym you are not a couple ?!How long you could live with for all these adverse forecasts stars?
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